sadness

i'll send this out into cyberspace. it may help. it's difficult to deal with here IRL, when all the family is so busy being upbeat and cheerful....

so my sister has had another "episode" of the ms. several really bad restless nights of insomnia, followed by collapsing on the floor in the middle of the night on her way to the loo. such a miserable image. her lying in the dark. how she must HATE needing someone to help her up. she is the helper. not the 'helpee'......
i miss her bubble and her spark. it's been robbed forever it seems.